Broken

I had a secret that I couldn't tell anyone.

Not my boyfriend, not my best friends, not my sister, not my crush, not my mother.

It was a secret that was sure to be talked about.

I was 5 weeks pregnant with my baby boy.

I had been sick for days.

I couldn't hold my head up at work. Talking on the phone even made me vomit.

This hurts. Not only do I have a 9 month old, but I am pregnant again.

As soon as this secret is out, people will gossip. I know because, My crush and I had recently been exposed. And no one would believe that we had never done anything... Except that one kiss. And I absolutely regretted the kiss.

I told a few friends.

About 2 weeks after I found out, I get a message from my crush. It says: "You're Pregnant?"
I immediately knew who told him. But, I didn't know why. I am sure she just didn't know the intensity of our relationship.

     It literally felt like we were in a relationship_ Even though we were far from it.

But, I couldn't help but to explode on her.

I felt horrible. After all, Everyone would find out soon. But those two words, "You're Pregnant?", even though I couldn't hear or see him, I knew his heart dropped the way mine did.

After I finally admitted it, "I ruined everything".

"You didn't ruin everything, maybe just made things more difficult but we'll make it" he finally responded.

And so the secret was out.

I was still living in the house with my boyfriend.

At home, I was sad. I wasn't even involved in my relationship. It was as if we were just roommates who shared the same love for a child.

As soon as I broke down and told him, he seemed very disappointed. Made excuses as to why he should go out every night.

We finally decided to take what money we had and separate, after a few very short months.

I moved home to my mother's once again.

And fell even more in love with who I knew was the love of my life.

We were moved back into the same building. He was right next to me...

I accepted the fact that I was having another baby. And he didn't treat me any differently.
Things were back to good.

Until the rumors started.