Hitting tha fan.

Constantly bickering, My ex and I were trying to patch things up.

My Crush and I had been caught texting, e-mailing, and talking on the phone.

I was over it.

If you love me, why are you not with me?

Why would you still be with the person you do not belong with. Maybe I should ask myself that.

I planned several "Girls Night Out" occasions. Me and my girl friends would all meet at the bar.
Secretly I would be meeting my crush. They knew it. They looked the other direction. There was no
telling us what we should and shouldn't do.

Our latest attempt to keep in touch secretly, was the dumbest idea we could have ever thought of.

He suggested I make a Facebook account under a name of one of his friends. (I guess we wanted to be sure we were really in love before we made a mess of our lives and a path of distruction) Instead I made an account with a total fake name. Silly me, made the account with my own email address which is in BIG BOLD LETTERS on the profile page. (Or did I do it on purpose, you ask?)

I admit, A lot of arguments I caused between my self and the father of my babies and My crush and his wife were planned and worked out accordingly.

Everyone knows it is easier to break up with someone you care about if they are mad.

And we did care about them.

We decided we wanted to be together!

The question was no longer "if?" but "when and how?".

We corresponded a few times through the fake facebook account.

Writing silly messages and chatting back and forth.

We continued our flirtatiousness at work for the whole world to see. We were in love.. Who cares who knows.

One night, I get a call from my "baby daddy" while I am at work. ((I remember this night too vividly))
He is screaming at me, asking me who is this person with my e-mail address on facebook whose only friend is **** ******* (My Crush).

I have no answers for him.

He took my daughter to my mother, and for some ridiculous reason, he brought my son to me. Keep in mind he was about 5 months old, so in a car seat.

For some reason, on this day, I was sitting in my crushes office. Something went wrong with staffing and I volunteered... imagine that =)

I was sitting in his office with my son... My crush knew exactly why. He was looking at me and talking on the phone.

It was his wife, and all hell was about to break loose....