__Inaudible__

Feelings where growing... Wasnt sure if he felt the same way.

I had to keep quiet.


Life goes on.


My baby girl was going on 5 months and this was her very first Christmas.
My boyfriend and I decided we would move out of our apartment and I moved
back home with my mom, Aubree and I shared a room that was the size of
a porch, but atleast my mom was there to help with the baby.

I was coming up on the end of my first semester of college, raising a baby girl

working full  time and dealing with relationship issues... Very busy. My mind had

begin to block out all emotions as sleep deprivation sat it from feedings and readings.

Trying to manage a full load was harder than I thought.

Finals were coming up. I had pimped the system so that I would sleep in between classes,

study at work, and show my daughter some love in my not so "free time".

I really didnt have time to fall in love with anyone. My face was stuck in a book or hidden

behind flashcards. Other times I would accidently go to work with spit up on my shirt.

**Very attractive, i know.

I didn't hang out with friends much, or go to any parties. I was 21 and that life as I knew it
was over... (or so I thought).