Audible & Blatant

Time flew by...

It was a couple nights before New Years night, and the only person I had told about my crush was my bfff.
She hadnt told anyone I could tell.  Heritage was like a soap opera on steriods, and gossip
around there would have spread rather quickly.

My friends were planning a New Years Party at their parents house. Little did I know, My crush would arrive later that evening.

So, On the 31st, My boyfriend and I decide to put our pasts behind us. After all, We have a beautiful baby
girl together. It is worth the effort of making the relationship work. We decide to head on over to the shindig.

Im in the clear. No enemies. Seems like tonight is going to be smooth sailing.

I get a call from a friend of mine who in later time, turns out to be one very true, very honest, and loyal confidant. She tells me she is on her way over to the party. She is bringing her (then) boyfriend and my Supervisor and his wife. (The sailboat is no longer sailing)

One tequilla, Two tequilla, 3 tequilla, MORE! 

By this time, all of my discreetness is out of the window. 

My crush and I are dancing away as our significant others pay no attention to us at all, since it is the unthinkable anyway. A few eye gazes and a wink or 2 later, The night is coming to an end.  

Riding home in silence, I smile a time or so to myself. What have I done to myself? I have fallen in love with this man, totally by accident, and the feelings are irreversible...

I couldnt sleep this night. I have a daughter, and a boyfriend (on again- off again) and my crush has a wife and 2 kids! There is nothing else I can do. I can't act on my feelings. How unfair is that for everyone involved. I can't hide my feelings either, how unfair to me... hmmm